Afternoon Snack, Bread Woes, and Pumpkin Pie

2 apples
24 oz water

My whole wheat bread didn’t come out. 😦 I’m going to have to get some help on this.

The pumpkin pie recipe on the pumpkin can was for cake. I was wondering why it was so funny. I hope they come out well because I kinda made it up as I went along with some help from an internet recipe.

Off to get the kiddos.


Trick or Treat

We went to the downtown festival last night. Chunguita wasn’t sure she wanted to go, but I told her that we would hold hands the entire time and leave as soon as she was tired.

She did pretty well. She needed me to get the candy from some of the more scary characters, whiches, vampires, and monsters. One monster scared her so badly that she wanted to run away but settled for hiding behind me.

Pulguito did very well. He loves his monkey costume. He wasn’t afraid of anything. He walked the entire time, and he carried his basket right up to everyone and held it out for candy.

On the way home, I tried to get everyone to wait until we got home to have candy. Robert just doesn’t seem to understand that if the rules don’t apply to him, he can’t enforce them with the kids. He sat in the front seat and ate the chocolate out of Chunguita’s basket. Of course she knew what he was doing, and of course, she wanted some too.

Trick or Treat

The downtown merchants association is having their trick or treat night, tonight, so I have to go home early from work (like that’s a bad thing?) to finish Pulguito’s monkey costume. We didn’t decide to go until this morning, and I didn’t have time to sew on the hat before work.

I worked a little on KS 3222.

Chunguita likes to go thru my fabric swatches. She used to like knits and stretch wovens because they have stretch, but this time when we got to the silk jersey, I told her that they were made from the cocoons of the silk worms that they had at daycare. She found this fascinating, so I pulled out my silk swatches and we looked at those. She was particularly fond of an iridescent fuchsia dupioni. I debated letting her take the swatch book to daycare for show and tell and decided against suggesting it. Perhaps if she asks, I’ll let her take it.

Back to Normal?

Pulguito’s fever broke around 7:30 am yesterday, so he’s back at daycare today.

Yesterday morning, as I was getting them ready, Chunguita asked if Pulguito were going to stay home. When I said yes, she wanted to know why she couldn’t stay home, too. I told her because I was going to run errends. She had a meltdown, demanding to go, too. As a compromise, I told her she could come with us to Starbuck’s. She calmed down, but after she got dressed, she decided she didn’t want to go to Starbuck’s.

As we were leaving, Pulguito melts down when he realises we’re not taking his daycare pack. I go back and get it. He’s confused when we get to daycare, because we go to Chunguita’s class. He always gets dropped off first. Since he loves PS3, he settles down, but when Chunguita takes off her coat, he wants to take off his coat and stay, too. Poor little boy with great big tears! He didn’t stop crying until we got to Starbuck’s and he got a sip of the (decaf, nonfat) latte.

This morning, I’m getting him dressed which is always a battle. After I get his pants, shirt, and sweatshirt on, I put him down on the floor so I can search for his shoes. Robert goes out to start the truck, and Pulguito goes running out after him. I’m in my pj’s with socks, no shoes, and I have to go running out after barefoot Pulguito. Pulguito was frantic until Robert and Chunguita came back into the house to help get his shoes on. And will Pulguito wear just any shoes? No, it has to be the leather boots.

last of the beach movies

Yack it up with the Shrink

I was asked what I eat for lunch. Usually, I have a vegetable of some
sort, which I must because that is part of my personal eating formula,
so I have a pound of carrots or 4 C of cooked brocolli or 4 cups of
squash, etc. Sometimes, I eat leftovers, but usually, I have a whole
wheat pita with peanutbutter (Adam’s) and a little jelly. Over the
course of the day, I have 2-3 decaf, nonfat capucinnos, 3-4 apples, 1-2
nonfat yogurts. I like to eat the samething every day. So I might
mix up the veggies or the fruit, but it’s basically the same.

I had a good meeting with the shrink today. She validated my feelings
that BH does not listen to me. And I asked for help. Because I have
an eating disorder, I’m hyper aware of what other people eat. I always
notice. I thought that was normal. I’ve successfully made the
transition to a whole foods breakfast: oatmeal, nonfat milk, banana,
and chopped nuts. But I lost the battle in a meeting yesterday
morning. I held out against the evil donut from 8 am until almost 10.
By then I was hungry and hyper aware of the donut (I’m going to die if
I don’t have the donut). I had the donut. I knew that once I had that
donut, I’d eat the one(s) waiting for me in the office suite, but I
still couldn’t hold out. And sure enough, I had a donut when I got up
to my office, the next time I walked by the evil food, the donuts were
gone, so I had a bagel. On the 3 subsequent trips, I got a brownie.

For those of you unfamiliar with eating disorders, it’s very similar to
alcoholism in that once you have the first drink/”donut”, it’s all over
and you can’t stop the next one and the next one and the next one.

So I asked her how can I prevent it. She said that normals don’t
notice the bag of food that I should carry around with me. So I’m
going to carry a bag of food to meetings and stuff.

I’m still working on the transition at dinnertime. The whole foods
diet does not particularly appeal to Chunguita and Pulguito, and I may have to
further complicate things by eliminating wheat completely.

I have my appointments with the nutritionist and the pill-dispensor
next week.