The theme for the Thursday Challenge is CELEBRATION.
The theme for Foto Pherrets is HOLIDAY.
It started out well. The kids were interested, and I was enthusiastic.
I use Making Great Gingerbread Houses: Delicious Designs from Cabins to Castles, from Lighthouses to Tree Houses as a starting point. It’s a good book with lots of inspiration. The gingerbread recipe tastes good and works great for making houses. The last couple of times I made a house, I used plans from this book. This time, I figured that I had enough experience to wing it. Now, I have enough experience to know that I don’t have enough experience to know.
Instead of using the plans that I had prepared, I decided to fold an 8.5×11 sheet of paper in half and use that as my template for the roofs. I used the same template to cut the pointy sides and that template folded in half to cut the sides of the house. On the pointy sides, I cut the corners out so that the lower ends of the triangle would be at the same height as the house sides. I smashed some lifesavers and put them in the window and door holes and shoved the dough in the oven.
It baked up fine except that the yellow candy windows burned a little. Note to self: check directions for baking the candy next time. I put it together, and it fell apart, leaving one wall standing. I put it together again, and it fell apart with no walls standing this time.
I get the @#$%ing half-decorated thing back together sans roof. I decided the problem is that I made the roof too steep. It’s great for keeping the snow (aka icing) from sticking, but without nails, the roof slides off, too. I managed to get the roofs to stay on using tubs filled with tangerines. I hoped that once the icing dried, the roofs would stick.
No such luck. In the end, I put the roofs inside the house and made up the storebought one from Trader Joe’s. Mine tasted better, and I think it looks better, too, as it damn well should. I think I had a tempertantrum in the kitchen during all this. I’m not sure. I would rather just dissociate from the whole experience.
We did this exercise yesterday in group.
Willingness to change
What do I want to change? How motivated am I? How willing am I? What do I think my chances of success are?
|–||no more binging||7||5||5|
|–||no more restricting*||10||8||10|
|–||keep food log||5||1||5|
|–||stop weighing myself||10||9||10|
*No More Restricting
Why is my willingness to stop an 8 and not a 10? I still want to lose weight.
Why isn’t my willing to stop restricting a 5? Restricting leads to binging, leads to purging behaviors, leads to restricting, leads to binging, and unending spiral into the black depths of the eating disorder.
Why is my willingness a 5 and not a 7? Still want to lose weight, still kinda like feeling hungry and the sense of power that gives me. I want my willingness to be higher, but it isn’t.
Why not a 3? 3/2 keeps me from restricting and keeps me healthy.
The stop weighing one is interesting. I think a year ago my motivation would have been a 3, my willingness a 1, and my success a 1. It’s nice to see some progress and gains from all this work.
A reporter at Slate did a review of several brands of pantyhose. I don’t agree with her findings. A couple of differences between the 2 of us:
- I wear the color suntan if I want to have a nude hose on. The brands she recommended aren’t dark enough for me.
- Spanx isn’t big enough in the upper inner thigh area for me, or it’s too big everywhere else. This doesn’t make for comfortable hose.
- The Victoria Secret brand is just barely big enough which suggests to me that it isn’t going to fit, but I haven’t tried it.
So do I have a recommendation? I like the Leggs brand best overall, but I think this is a highly individual thing, like which jeans fit you best.
It’s so exhausting opening presents.
The theme for Photo Tuesday is FAMILY.
I pruned 4 roses and started a 5th one. It seems a shame when some are still blooming, but this is as dormant as they get.