Sick but content

I’ve worn myself out. :tired: We went to Santa Cruz on Sunday, and I drove Eina around Berkeley yesterday. The best part of yesterday, tho, is that Vivian did a happy dance when I came in the door. It was like she was greeting her dad! What a gift! I will treasure that memory for the rest of my life. (More after the cut. )

Jack didn’t go.

I spent a lot of time listening to Eina. I told her it was okay to say the same things over and over. I am so worried about how they will be when they go back home. I wish I could be there, so that I could stop by every weekend or better yet, evening, and check in on them.

I told her some of my “horrible” thoughts, like I wish it had been Abuelo who died instead of Diego. I wanted her to know that she’s not the only person who has such thoughts, and that while I’m not proud of them, I’m not ashamed either. Thoughts like that are part of grief.

We talked about how we both feel guilty when we are enjoying something, anything really, and especially if it is something that Diego would have enjoyed.

Eina & Vivian

We also talked about churches because the daycare that Jack & Eina use is at a church. I think there are lots of reasons to go to churches besides going to worship. The community and support you can get it wonderful, and yes, that probably sounds like I am endorsing “using” the church. But I have found that if it isn’t material (like money) that the church people want to give. Heck, they even want to give material things, but they aren’t a bottomless pit full of money. One of the wonderful gifts that my parents’ church gave us was the memorial that she minister gave. She said, “Diego was a complete person.” That helped so much. Anyway, that’s the sort of giving that I’m talking about. I also think that the Karma Kops think it is okay to take when you need to. Eina and Jack are good people; they will give back, perhaps not to the church or perhaps to the church, when they are able. The church is down the street from their house; I hope they take advantage of it.

Vivian & Abuela, ’cause Vivian is so cute, and I like the way Abuela is looking at her.

We had a wonderful day.

We went to

  • Paper Source
    740 Hearst Avenue, Berkeley, CA 94710, (510) 665-7800

    If you are looking for envelopes, this is the place to go. I had a terrible time when I made my wedding invitations. I couldn’t find envelopes that fit them anywhere. Well, now, almost 10 years too late, I know where to go.

    They have lots of other cool stuff, too.

  • Blick Art Materials
    811 University Avenue
    Berkeley, CA 94710
    Phone: (510) 486-2600

    It’s an art supply store. I think maybe I was just tired by the time we got there. I was impressed by the furniture, but, alas, I have insufficient money for artist funiture. The catalog is fantastic. I do recommend Dick Blick. I didn’t ask, but I wonder if they would order what I wanted from the catalog and not charge me shipping (’cause it would come with the rest of the stuff they order)?

  • Elmwood Stationers
    2947 College Avenue, Berkeley, CA 94705 • (510) 841-3073

    This store was a delight. The prices were good. They are an old fashioned stationary store. Eina and I spend a long time browsing their stuff, and considering that it’s a teeny store (compared to Office Depot), that means I give this place a great recommendation.

  • Miki’s Paper
    (510) 845-9530, 1801 4th St, Berkeley, CA 94710

    Very Expensive, but what does one expect when shopping for Japanese paper. The paper was exquisite.

    1717 4th St, Ste A, Berkeley, CA 94710

    Closed on Mondays! Bastards!

  • Castle in the Air
    (510) 204-9801
    1805 4th St, Berkeley, CA

    Very expensive to moderate. They had some nice stuff. If I had money, I’d spend it here. I don’t seem to have a drooling icon. Hm. :weird: How’s that? I have a journal that is with from recycled cotton paper. This store offered some journals that were made with the same stuff, and it was in colors! :biggrin: Unfortunately, the store couldn’t help me locate the paper.

We ate lunch at The Pasta Shop. I had Phat Thai which was wonderful and beets in lemon juice and olive oil which were beets. I like beets, but I was hoping for super-enhanced beets, like the Phat Thai was so good. Still, it was a good lunch.

Craft Stores in Oakland, Alameda, Berkeley, etc.

I’m thinking of driving my SIL around to check them out.



  • Paper Source
    740 Hearst Avenue
    Berkeley, CA 94710
  • Eastwind Books of Berkeley
    (510) 548-2350
    2066 University Ave
    Berkeley, CA
  • Utrecht
    1909 University Ave
    Berkeley, CA 94704
    (510) 649-0808
  • Blick Art Materials
    811 University Avenue
    Berkeley, CA 94710
    Phone: (510) 486-2600
  • Elmwood Stationers
    2947 College Avenue, Berkeley, CA 94705 • (510) 841-3073
  • Artist and Craftsman Supply
    Berkeley, CA
    2573 Shattuck Avenue
    Berkeley, CA 94704 Toll Free: 888.338.4040
    Phone: 510.704.4040
    Fax 510.704.8002
    M-F 10 AM – 8 PM
    Sa 10 AM – 7 PM
    Su 12 PM – 6 PM
  • Miki’s Paper
    (510) 845-9530
    1801 4th St, Berkeley, CA 94710

San Leandro

  • Michaels #8695
    15100 Hesperian Blvd
    94578 (510) 278-5400

San Francisco

Christmas Lights & Christmas Eve

Our Christmas Village
Our Christmas Village
One present on xmas 'eve
Pulguito and DH playing with the new legos

So I was feeling in the spirit last night, Christmas Eve, and I walked around the house taking pix of some of our decorations. We haven’t put the village out for a while because we didn’t trust Pulguito to not play with it. I’m happy to say that he and his sister did pretty well this year. There were a couple of incidents, but nothing was broken.

More after the cut.

It’s very satisfying to get it all set up, and we resisted the urge to add to it this year.

We let each kid open one present on Christmas Eve. Pulguito picked a big box with coast guard legos in them. He started building right away. He really likes legos. He can spend hours quietly playing with them.

PJs from Granny
PJs from Granny

Chunguita chose a box that held 2 sets of pjs from Granny. She changed out of the pjs that she had on so that she could wear one of the new ones. She says the figures on the pjs are gingerbread men; they look like sock monkeys to me.

Rudolph the Red Nose Reindeer
Rudolph and friends
101 Dalmations
101 Dalmations & Cruella and friends
Heavily decorated house
Teddy on Rocking Horse = Cute

I tried to take the kids out to see the lights in town. We managed to get to 2 houses on the list and stopped at 2 others on the way that were impressive.

Egg Snowman
I like this egg shaped snowman.
I want that penguin
I want the penguin.
I want the elf
And I want the elf.

Merry Christmas!